Saturday, August 6, 2011
Last blogged @ 5:06 PM

I guess no one is actually reading my blog anymore. sad~. should i close this blog or jus occasionally blog it?

just talk! i don tell, but i hope u all call me to talk to me.

seriously~

my life still need to goes on...

someone deserve you more than i do, this is for sure. i don deserve!

I will slowly to try not to think or to miss you day by day. Times is all i need. Hopefully, it's a fresh start for me. It maybe be hard but i will try. Is not an overnight thing.So I needs to slowly heal my deep wounds. i need a little faith. The moment alone.... is has being 5 years since i was unattached. No looking back to the sad past and for the future I do not want to expect. Just be myself and be happy.This is all I wish. For now, i still childish and immature. After years or few more months, I want to be the new me. which i keep mentioned on my blog several times. JIA YOU! let be friend, back to knowing process. maybe we do not know each other very well at all.

To myself: When have I ever laugh out loud that cause me to cry for happiness??

hmmm. I forget when. But i am sure it was quite sometime back then.

To you, if you still regularly view my blog: Many of my first times and yours we never do. but i hope the lists of first times we shouldnt forget it.=) (the post i posted back in 30/3/2011 added new first time.

flash back memories:
first thing to do tgt.(for me or its for you)
- Go clubbing at zircia/rebel
- Go clubbing at zouk
- Drink Shots together (for the first time)
- Play Luge at sentosa together (first time)
- Went hard rock cafe for the first time
- Went Botonic Garden for the first time (For me)
- Went Marina Sands Skypark together (for the first time)
- Receive rose of flowers for my first time
- Went Woodlands waterfront for the first time (For me)
- Made Tiramisu cake for you
- Went batam and genting together (holiday vacation just with my bf)
- Went to take the Singapore Flyer (For both of us)
- Attend my bf graduation ceremony for the first time (For me)
- Did my full body massage spa with my bf for the first time (For me)
- Ride the traditional bicycle for the first time (for me)

- and our first time ................................

I know i shdnt have think about the old times. but many are the happy moments, that make me feel better and brighter my day eventually!.

let me hold/hug you for the last time is all i wish.