Saturday, July 31, 2010
Last blogged @ 12:53 PM

Katy Perry's new song - LOVE IT

You think I'm pretty
Without any makeup on
You think I'm funny
When I tell the punchline wrong
I know you get me
So I let my walls come down, down

Before you met me
I was a wreck but things
Were kinda heavy
You brought me to life
Now every February
You'll be my Valentine, Valentine

Let's go all the way tonight
No regrets, just love
We can dance, until we die
You and I, will be young forever

You make me feel
Like I'm livin' a
Teenage dream
The way you turn me on
I can't sleep
Let's run away and
Don't ever look back,
Don't ever look back

My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance and
Don't ever look back,
Don't ever look back

We drove to Cali
And got drunk on the beach
Got a motel and
Built a fort out of sheets
I finally found you
My missing puzzle piece
I'm complete

Let's go all the way tonight
No regrets, just love
We can dance, until we die
You and I, will be young forever

You make me feel
Like I'm livin' a
Teenage dream
The way you turn me on
I can't sleep
Let's run away and
Don't ever look back,
Don't ever look back

My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance and
Don't ever look back,
Don't ever look back

I'mma get your heart racing
In my skin tights jeans
Be your teenage dream tonight
Let you put your hands on me
In my skin tight jeans
Be your teenage dream tonight


Yoooouuu
You make me feel
Like I'm livin' a
Teenage dream
The way you turn me on
I can't sleep
Let's run away and
Don't ever look back,
Don't ever look back
No

My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance and
Don't ever look back,
Don't ever look back

I'mma get your heart racing
In my skin tights jeans
Be your teenage dream tonight
Let you put your hands on me
In my skin tight jeans
Be your teenage dream tonight
(Tonight, tonight, tonight, tonight, tonight, tonight)

Labels: lyrics

Friday, July 30, 2010
Last blogged @ 5:07 PM

"Life will be better"

Last blogged @ 11:08 AM

Today actually don need to go to school.. but need to report to school at 10am for project. sianz.... But I was late for meeting, wake up at 9am. make it to school at 10.30am instead. I hate rainning day! wet and muddy. Yesterday weather was so hot. Today so cold. What de~

I'm really not looking toward to weekends compare to last time.. Monday PLEASE come quickly.. shanghai trip have brought forward to 21sep to 28 sep. yes! =) right after I celebrate my sister birthday I am ready to have fun in shanghai.

Sok teng and I going to KL on 23 aug to 26 aug. taking plane hehe. cant wait for that day to come.. =) planning in process....

Thursday, July 29, 2010
Last blogged @ 12:58 PM

Don't try to explain your mind
I know what's happening here
One minute it's love
And suddenly it's like a battlefield

One word turns into a war
Why is it the smallest things that tear us down?
My world's nothing when you don't
I'm not here without a shield
Can't go back now

Both hands, tied behind my back with nothing
Oh no, these times when we climb so fast to fall again
Why we gotta fall for it now

I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for

Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield?
Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield?
Why does love always feel like

Can't swallow our pride
Neither of us wanna raise that flag
If we can't surrender then we both gonna lose
What we had, oh no

Both hands tied behind my back with nothing
Oh no, these times when we climb so fast to fall again
I don't wanna fall for it now

I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for

Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield?
Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield?

I guess you better go and get your armor
(Get your armor)
Get your armor
I guess you better go and get your armor
(Get your armor)
Get your armor
I guess you better go and get your

We could pretend that we are friends tonight
(Oh, oh, oh)
And in the morning we'll wake up and we'll be alright
'Cause baby, we don't have to fight
And I don't want this love to feel like

A battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield

I guess you better go and get your armor

I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for
(Fighting, fighting for)

Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield?
Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield?

I guess you better go and get your armor
(Get your armor)
Get your armor
I guess you better go and get your armor
(Get your armor)
Get your armor

Why does love always feel like?
Why does love always feel like?
A battlefield, a battlefield

I never meant to start a war
Don't even know what we're fighting for
I never meant to start a war
Don't even know what we're fighting for

Labels: lyrics

Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Last blogged @ 7:44 PM

Monday, July 26, 2010
Last blogged @ 7:18 AM

Today is the first day of my 5 months being alone. But all along i am alone, single just attached. In this 5 months of being together, many happy and sad moments. the first 3 months was so happy for me. i still remember you pick me up at my work place drive to get this fish porridge, surprise me after you went for checkup bought a couple water bottles for me and you, another surprises were we planned to go out on Friday, you went to NP waited for 3 hours till i end my classes and many more. all of this i did not appreciated at that time. you told me you treated me very good  le but i was so thinking i have done more than all this you have done for me, in return you would be giving me more. I have this wrong mindset. I believe you had the feeling for me for the first 3 months. however, our relation worsen after numerous quarrel of small matter. I did told you my problem with all my ex were that they cant stand that i always so petty(fight) in the first place when we knew each other, but i simply just need a apologies from them, i don care who is in the wrong just apologies everything will be fine. but i guess you did not bother anymore, at first u did but after so many times you neglect the problem and think that you are not happy with me and you felt that i am not happy with you all the time. eventually, i am not unhappy just that i want to make thing right for us but sometime i am unhappy lah. I complaint coz i care but you don since to think that way. you struggled through this 2 months giving me chances and opportunity for me to prove to you that I can be nice (will not complaint on small matter). I tried really tried. but i guess even i tried when there was a little fight that happened, you think that i did not change and always asked me to be myself and said all the thing i do not want to hear(not suit to be tgt, don meet anymore, you are tired of all this quarrels). Cause you already had an impression of me that was not good. If you love me,you should try to understand my problem that always make me angry (avoid that problem) but i guess you are no longer want to be with me so you don bother to try. Even if you did, you gave up too soon.

24 of july morning we split for sure. You does not want to sms, see, or even talk to me. all i can do is to try to get contacted with you. But you was so stubborn and wanted to be away from me forever. There was nothing i can do, i did try but it still failed. I just have move on with my life, i am not sure that whether i will wait for you if you happen to ask me out again. Surprisingly, i went to read your blog in the past. I am so envious with your ex gf. she was so lucky cause you really love her and want to do anything for her; but sad was she did not appreciated you. I think same is girl but don have same good life. Anyway that day i realized i am not wrong, actually we are about to settle it but somehow you suddenly talk about don meet anymore all that. i told you that i want to watch the movies with you but you keep saying don't talked about it. You are the one being angry and not happy. Think about it, do it makes sense?

Thanks to my friend ZC and family members telling me that just have to forget about you and move on, they told me if you still love me or have the feeling as i have you will someday return. Right now, I will concentrated on my school works and save up for my 21 bday trip.

p.s. I really hope we can still talk about our stuff and joke around (i have lose another guy friend). eventually i told you that i cant be friend with you after we broke up, but i have to face the truth we cant be tgt anymore yet i still like you. This is what you have decided on unless your stubborn mindset can change or else there are nothing I can do. So ya, live happily and I will enjoy my life to the fullness. Take care~ and success your plan =) (hope to see a skinny desmond)

Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Last blogged @ 10:56 AM

Now my focus are my study and study...

3 reports have be done:
Medsoc - Advertisement report
MRSH- FYR
BMM - FYR

4 Presentation coming up:
IB ppt
Graphic Comm ppt (include all the stuff completed)
MRSH ppt
BMM ppt


3 Exam papers:
BMM
IB
Medsoc


GOING TO BE BUSY FOR NOW... BUT I WANT TO ENJOY MY LIFE TOO HAHA. HOPEFULY I HAVE A HEALTHY BODY TO COPE WITH ALL THE STRESS AND TIREDNESS YAYA.

Monday, July 19, 2010
Last blogged @ 11:28 PM

Mix feelings~

I have some much questions to ask him. but i am afraid to ask.. i have expect some of the consequences once i start asking him all this questions:

he will be upset, say i am like police asking criminal stuff. he dont like it
he will be angry, do not want talk to me because I am demanding and irritating. he don't like it
he will want to sleep or go home, trying to avoid my questioning and pretend i do not existed.

but does he know why i want to know all this?? because all this are my worries. I do not have any position in his life. i am a nobody to no one. just like an unwanted child.

I don behave this way if only i have the assurance from him that someday somehow he would ask me by my hand to be his steady girlfriend. will the moment come, or just a illusion or a daydream for me to believe? all of this sure to him is what i am demanding for, am i have the right to demand anything coz i am no body to him at all. no right to do this. everyone are afraid their love one betray them to find someone better and prettier. this is my fear. coz i am no body girl friend in the first place. he can know as many girls he likes and go out with someone he like have or crush on i cant do anything. i can only ask and hide in a corner crying.. when will i have the turn to be someone i wish to be. openly announce/proudly say that i am attached, but not thinking that i am single yet going out with a guy for months yet nothing happened.

p.s. if you reading this, i am not saying that i am not unhappy with you but i have many worries here. please understand. i am waiting for your answer, if are ready to be question. if you are not i am ok with it. i have the time. i am willing to compromise if any edges between us. coz i love you. i don mind one sided. i am happy when i  with you. i wan this is to be this way

Labels: LOVES

Thursday, July 15, 2010
Last blogged @ 1:30 PM

I can't blame you for thinking that
You never really knew me at all
I tried to deny you but nothing
Ever made me feel so wrong I thought
I was protecting you from everything that
I go through but I know that we got lost along the way

Here I am
With all my heart
I hope you understand
I know I let you down
But I'm never gonna make that mistake again
You brought me closer to who I really am
Come take my hand
I want the world to see
What you mean to me
What you mean to me

Just know that I'm sorry I never
Wanted to make you feel so small
Our story is just beginning we'll let
The truth brake down these walls, oh yeah
And every time I think of you I think of how
You pushed me through and showed me
How much better I could be

Here I am
With all my heart
I hope you understand
I know I let you down
But I'm never gonna make that mistake again
You brought me closer to who I really am
Come take my hand
I want the world to see
What you mean to me
What you mean to me

You make me feel like I'm myself
Instead of being someone else
I wanna live that every day
When you say what no one else
Will say you know exactly
How to get to me you
Know It's what I need
It's what I need yeah

Here I am
With all my heart
I hope you understand
I know I let you down
But I'm never gonna make that mistake again
You brought me closer to who I really am
Come take my hand
I want the world to see
What you mean to me
What you mean to me

Labels: lyrics

Friday, July 9, 2010
Last blogged @ 11:45 PM

He should be at KL enjoying his birthday with his pals bah.. I want to spend the day with him, but too bad i cant. Next year bah =). I remember he spend my birthday with me at Pioneer MacDonald. I was so happy  that time, eventually I have my exam the next day =) he is the first person to message me too =)

Last blogged @ 9:14 PM

To put the others comforts before me. Because just that is a beginning of love.

Thursday, July 8, 2010
Last blogged @ 9:44 AM

I DO NOT WANT TO GO BACK TO SQUARE 1. IT HURTS ME. =(

I misunderstand him, he is trying his best, but i just getting to start demand for more. i have no right to do so. I get jealous with this girl jayne for what sia. i know he do not like her but i do not know does he like me either. so i worry, i am to be someone he can put under his arm and wanted to protect this person.

He ask me calm down and think it through, i only think about the happy things and the happy moments when i calm down. so eventually, i came out with this plan, everytime when i about to blurt with tears or anger i will ask him to leave me alone for a moment then i will find him when i am ok, if not, i will start showing attitude and temper to him.  i do not want him to feel hurt and irritated by me. I might be silly with this kind of love, but i just simply silly fallen for him. I think there is no turning back. i just have to face it. how sad i will become i don care about, i just think that i will be happy with him no matter what went wrong. =).

p.s. I am not changing for you, i am just adapting to the one i loves.

Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Last blogged @ 11:30 PM

i am 200% piss off. firstly, my presentation for today was like a well for me to jump. i did badly again for my presentation as i am doing the introduction part, i realise i am the one dragging the whole group to get a deduct mark for extended the time of 25mins instead of 20mins for presentation. 5 mins confirmed i'm the one being usin, coz i talked too slow and i am so nervous. maybe i did not hv my lunch that is why. i blame myself and i told yuting about it and she kind of piss off with me. i am so sad. i ran out of the classroom to cry in the toliet and told my BMM teacher to let me leave early (reason: not feeling well) when i came back. after that saw ZC on the way toward the bus stop. At first, i called amanda to tell her about it. coz i want to tell someone about it, how i feel and how the feeling make me want to cry but she did not pick up the phone. so i need to talk. ZC talked me out, made me feel better. but Yuting called me on the bus, and she told me she was sorry about the yelling. then i told her is not her, is me. she told me no one were not blame for the presentation. my tears almost came out, but i did not coz ZC was there. I cried easily, weakness i guess. ZC accompany to long john for me to buy my lunch cum dinner. (take away). rest at home for like an hour plus. no sms from him. =( anyway after that i conduct tuition at 6. came back home shower blah blah blah. Finally, he msg me. instead he did not ask about me first, he ask about the tuition. Ya, i guess he concern about his bro. EMO~ and i noticed he totally forget about my presentation thing like i told him some many times. thought he would ask me how was it. but lucky he did not. coz i do not wan to tell him about it. it was so badly done. i told him that i did badly for my rebate for the debate, and now this. i felt ashamed of myself.

i guess, he do not understand me. I need a guy to be my listening ear even when i say i do not wan to tell him, its mean i want to but i scare he will tink that i am bad or whatever. I know he will not mind, but i feeling sad about how i did even for a small presentation. is like my 3rd year in NP and i am so bad in presentation. if he do wan to know what i wan to tell him, he should not be angry at me for showing him the attitude coz i am the one sad/moody not him at first. cant he put his temper or mood aside first. i guess sometime i think i wan to give up. I wanted to call him to tell him about it. My feeling for him is no longer love i think is something different from the way he treat me since we last fight. I prefer the old him, the way he treat me and call me. Not like now.

I think after his bday, we need to talk.

Thursday, July 1, 2010
Last blogged @ 10:58 PM

This few days I am tired of school. attending lecture was fine for me. but tutorials and projects suck the most. my group mates never listen to any of my comments. they thinks they knew everything and they said mean it what i said what a joke or rubbish to the whole project. end up when i ask teacher myself or during consultant everything was what i expected, I AM RIGHT. I have always being a group leader in NP for the past 2 years. but this last semester i just slack abit and things went out of my hands. I realized i miss my old friend (group mates) -- Amanda, rachel, yian ping and soo kuan. =( want to cry.. need a shoulder to lie on and cry...

Every time reached home, no one at home. use the laptop, tv,shower, eat and slp. No one sms me.. I don give a damn le. just tired i guess