Friday, August 5, 2011
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i am suffering here and you are doing nothing. when you chased me, i am the jewel stone. once you have me, i am a waste jewel to you. use le do not want. i am like a toy. bored with the toy. you go wait for yourself. I treated you so well. go your house find you when you are sick (most of the time). give you massage even if you never asked. went down to your work place and waited for you for an hour more. give up my sleep just to talk to you when we just met. love you and listen to your problem ( be there when i can). have I push you away?. Have you needed me most, i neglected you?. your stupid self centre feeling have torn me into many many many pieces. I have told myself to change for the better. but I am sad while i trying to change. You make me sad and cried. ='(. my depressed all once again rise due you. I have to be stay firm. Just now while talking to you on the phone, make me realise the unimportant "me" to you. I know you are tired. so am I. plus I am sick. you can pretend that you do not care. I am just a thick skin person, telling you trying to hope you will ask me how's my work while you actually do not care or concern.

This few 10 months I do enjoyed the good times together. If you do love me and want me back in your life. You should do something about it. NOT ME! this is only giving me heartaches and rejection feeling.