Wednesday, March 30, 2011
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Few more minutes it will be 31 march morning. it has being one year since my dad leave us to heaven. i felt sad n missing him every day, but today i am extremely sad. while thinking the time when i was with my dad in ICU. he held my hands make me heart aches n hot tears rolled down my eyes to my cheeks. this will alway remain in my mind. :'( even through my dad love my sister more than me, i still love him. I alway want his attention but in his eyes, my sister was his precious one. i admited that i love my dad no matter how neglect/invisible i am to him.

it has being 3days, but i really wish that you are here by my side with me. i miss u... i miss the warm hug i love to get, the sweet smile that cheer me up, the caring hands of your that fit perfectly to my little hands & the kisses you give me when i am down. your smell remind me of my loved dad. but nt just the smell that attracted me to you. is the way you are that helps me open up to love agsin. everything u did mske me want you more.... i thought you are the last one for me... i thought we will last forever, coz when i am with u. i know i where i belong... but everything is just a dream. dream do not come true, they are just my dream.... :( i am alone, no love, no one to listen to and only saddness n loneliness that can be seem|find from me......

why do everyone have to left me.... i think cause i am a bad girl, i hv to get my punishmemts several times.... but i do know why even you who i wanted to be with for my rest of my life do this to me... i know my heart want you bck, but my mind stop me from being selfish. love me for the happy moments, this is whst i can ask from you....:(

listening to "when you are gone". which remind me of my dad.