Thursday, July 8, 2010
Last blogged @ 9:44 AM

I DO NOT WANT TO GO BACK TO SQUARE 1. IT HURTS ME. =(

I misunderstand him, he is trying his best, but i just getting to start demand for more. i have no right to do so. I get jealous with this girl jayne for what sia. i know he do not like her but i do not know does he like me either. so i worry, i am to be someone he can put under his arm and wanted to protect this person.

He ask me calm down and think it through, i only think about the happy things and the happy moments when i calm down. so eventually, i came out with this plan, everytime when i about to blurt with tears or anger i will ask him to leave me alone for a moment then i will find him when i am ok, if not, i will start showing attitude and temper to him.  i do not want him to feel hurt and irritated by me. I might be silly with this kind of love, but i just simply silly fallen for him. I think there is no turning back. i just have to face it. how sad i will become i don care about, i just think that i will be happy with him no matter what went wrong. =).

p.s. I am not changing for you, i am just adapting to the one i loves.